Hi Friends:)
I am happy to say after a rough week I had a great weekend and finished it off with a successful first injection!
This past week was stressful. On top of the craziness of work right now I was trying to get all my meds ordered/chosen and deal with our insurance company. Little did I know I couldn't scoot over to our local Kroger Pharmacy to pick everything up--- all of the "goods" come from a medical pharmacy of your choice and it seemed they were all of of New Jersey (go figure)! And of course just when I thought everything was all set, they called and said one of the injection brands I chose was not covered by our insurance but if I wanted to pay out of pocket for this one medication it would be $2,000.00. Uhhhh, no thanks! So I ended up switching to a different brand to save a few bucks... lol. Everything arrived to me at work on Thursday morning. I opened the box and took a look inside to see a ton of syringes, alcohol wipes and the "sharps" container. How exciting:/
Friday afternoon D and I flew down to Atlanta for one of my best friends "Baby-Q". It was a great, beautiful "co-ed" shower. Honestly, the best baby shower I have ever been to. Usually I have had one too many mimosas and am slowly sinking deeper into the couch hoping no one will notice I'm trying to rest my eyelids. Hehe.
Some of you may be wondering how or why the heck I went to a baby shower the weekend I'm starting my first IVF cycle, but I am so glad I went. Honestly though, if someone had asked me if I was going to attend 6 months ago I probably would not have had a definitive answer. When these things come up in an infertile person's life... it really has to be taken on a case by case basis. For example, back when I was doing my IUI's it was the biggest roller coaster, it was terrible. I wanted to run away from pregnant people... it was just a strange instinct. lol. Remember learning about the "Flight or Fight" response? That was (sometimes still is) me; flight. Nothin' but flight. And, really when you are going through infertility, if you are feeling like an event is not going to be a good idea to attend... it's best to listen to your instincts and not make yourself go through something just because. I learned my lesson quickly as the day I found out my first IUI cycle failed--- I had already committed to going to someone's baby shower. EPIC FAIL. I left the house in hysterics (literally) and showed up 30 minutes late to the shower. I walked in and it felt like everyone was staring at me... surely they could all tell I was a raging lunatic just 45 minutes prior! I sat with a few girls I barely knew and slugged back a few glasses of champagne, didn't eat a thing, and if I recall correctly was trying to make jokes that no one was laughing at. Oh lawdy. Anyway, I guess my point here is.... I have found people are so kind and if you are just honest and tell them how you feel..... if you can't see them right now or might have to miss an event they will be understanding. Thankfully during this break inbetween my failed IUI's and starting IVF I have been able to come to a much better mental state in which I knew I could never miss this great friends Baby Q <3
So, back to the events of the Baby Q. First, let me say I totally expected this to all go down the way it did just because I have come to know my friends' (let's call her K) group of friends down in Atlanta and they are a fun crew! By 9:45pm we were all outside enjoying the nice night, listening to music, maybe even attempting the "Wop" and then one of K's friends looks around the group of people.. see's me and yells, "Leanne... come start off the keg stands!!!" Allllrighty then! I thought to myself, "you just never know when your last keg stand is going to be!??!" So up I went onto the little deck, in my dress (that D held)...... and did a keg stand, for all of 7 seconds! Hopefully that is my last keg stand I'll be allowed to do in the next 10 months.
It was such a great weekend and it is amazing to see how much love there already is for this little girl due in September. It's hard to beleive K, once dubbed "Spring Break MVP" is about to bring a baby into the world. She is going to be such a great (and fun) mama! <3 Before I flew to Atlanta this weekend I asked that the Lord granted me peace and put nothing but happiness and love in my heart for my dear friend-- I can definitely say that prayer was answered!
And lastly, my first injection is complete! D and I were both a little nervous-- thankfully there are instructional videos online to take you through step by step. The only thing that went a little differently then planned is that I couldn't give myself the shot-- D had to do it for me. I sat there with it up to my belly and kept chickening out. Thankfully, D (who usually can't even look at a needle) just calmly took the syringe from my hand and told me to close my eyes. And it was done in a few seconds of course! I DO need to be able to give them to myself by the end of this week though as D is going to have to still travel over the next couple of weeks and I don't think I can rely on Penny :)
That's it for now. I dont' know if I will have much more to update over the next two weeks. I just have to take this one shot every evening up until August 17th. Then it goes to three shots a night of the stimulant drugs. That's the serious stuff!
Thank you for your continued support, prayers, emails, gchats, texts... all of the above!
I can't wait to watch the Bachelorette finale tomorrow night even though I've read all the spoilers!!!:)
XOXO,
Mrs. P
